I feel like crap.
I’m sick of being in pain. I’m sick of having to go to the bathroom. I’m sick of not being able to eat when the fuck I want.
My body feels so horrible.
So gross, and disgusting. Nothing I could eat or drink right now will make me feel any better.
I just feel like I’m falling apart. I can’t keep anything in.
BUT today, I got a prescription for something called, Dicyclomine, which I’ve never heard of, but I hope it helps. It’s pretty cheap so I should be able to keep affording it.
I’m so scared to work while I feel like this.
I hate having to share the ONE bathroom with a million people. I have to wait to get in there, when I really can’t wait, then once I do, it’s pretty inevitable that someone knocks. It’s so stupid.
First post.
All I want to do is eat, and I can’t. I can barely eat anything without being in ridiculous amounts of pain. I’m enough pain as is WITHOUT eating. I’m already sick of having to take pain pills to not feel like I’m dying. For as long as I’ve had Crohn’s I’ve never paid attention to what I could or couldn’t eat, kinda regretting that now. Because I’m kind of stuck in the mindset that, everything will make me hurt, so why bother? It was never really a major problem while I was on the Remicade, but now since I have no pain barrier, it’s kind of hard. I’m also being stubborn, because I want to refuse to let this control what I can and cannot eat, because god damn I love food. But it hurts too much.
